All my friends think she is just the cat’s pajamas. She has such joy for life, such zest! She finds happiness and excitement in everything she sees. Her favorite shows are America’s Funniest Home Videos, and anything on the Animal Planet Channel. She is compassionate, caring, happy, loving, friendly, and outgoing. She gives hugs like wealthy people give pennies. She has a smile for everyone.
And yet sometimes, I WISH she would just settle down. It’s difficult for me. I was an introvert. I was quiet, I stayed in my room, and did the moody teenager thing. No one liked me, I didn’t have many friends. I listened to music and I read a lot. And I didn’t chatter. I had no one to chatter with! Morgan doesn’t need anyone to chatter with, she just TALKS. And TALKS. And GIGGLES. And it goes on and on!
I worry that my moodiness will rub off on her, and that soon she will barely speak to me. I worry that she will become sullen and quiet from me telling her to settle down all the time. I wish for a middle ground, a child who is happy and joyful, without be quite so vocal about it.
I also wish for the capacity for joy that she has. For the ability to sit and watch cute animals on TV and just giggle helplessly at everything I see. I don’t like being so serous and grumpy all the time. And I don’t like being reminded that I need more joy in my life.
Don’t get me wrong. My life is not joyless. But I expect it’s much the life of every adult woman with children out there. Life is serious. There are business things to think of, bills to pay, deposits to be made, groceries to buy, laundry to do, meals to cook. And Lord help me, I haven’t had enough coffee yet to deal with all this JOYOUS CHATTER! I’m just an old GRUMP.
But I do love her dearly. Maybe I’ll get lucky and her joy will rub off on me. <smiles>
You moody? You always seem so happy and upbeat! Having girls is such a blessing. Sometimes maddening, but I bet you can't imagine your life any other way!
ReplyDeleteI try to stay happy and upbeat, at least on the outside. I'm not grumpy ALL the time. I suspect lately it has a lot to do with the medication I'm on for the never-ending case of hives. Only 4 more days of this medication, though, and maybe I'll feel better both mentally and physically. And you're right. I can't imagine life without my daughter. She truly is my sunshine, I just sometimes need to wear my sunglasses, she shines so brightly! LOL
DeleteSpend a small bit of time a day sitting with her on the couch and find reasons to giggle. If there is anything that my kids have taught me in my redeeming attempt at parenting them, I need to take the time to sit with them daily and just enjoy them. Share in their moment. They will value it!
ReplyDeleteCouch time would be lovely. I'm sure you know how difficult that is to come by. I've never been a giggly person, so I guess I'll have to start learning how. It almost seems like I forgot how to play, once I became a parent. It's something I definitely need to brush up on.
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